Tuesday, October 8, 2013

A Change of Heart


Sit down, this one may take a while. It is a long story. It is convoluted. I am rooting for the Dodgers, against my conscious normal will. And I cannot help myself. I will say two things are helping, no Tommy LaSorda and I like Don Mattingly (former Yankee great). I was introduced to baseball by the Yankees. Grew up with a Yankee hat on. Not a real one like kids wear today. Mine was a shitty, cheap and tacky imitation. It was navy blue, it was felt, but the N Y was simply white felt GLUED on. And after months of wearing it the letters would curl up and you would have to glue them back down or beg for a new one. I wore this shitty, cheap tacky imitation hat because I loved the Yankees and because everyone else in the neighborhood had shitty cheap tacky imitation hats. That was the world we lived in. Nobody thought you needed one just like the players; geez, you had to BE a player to get a hat like that. I loved the Yankees because I was an east coast kid. I loved the Yankees because they were my home team. I had nothing but contempt for the Dodgers because a) we always beat ‘em and b) they left New York for that dreaded west coast city of Los Angeles. Here is where it gets weird. My mother loved the Dodgers. And my mother was my conduit to baseball. She followed it, she talked about it and yet she was stupid enough to be a Dodger fan. She was a Dodger fan BECAUSE they were a west coast team. She was a west coast person – and I had to struggle with that. So I struggled with that and felt sorry for my mother, who knowledgeable about baseball and my source of baseball discussions, was deluded enough to be a Dodger fan. My poor mother, what was she thinking? October 1963. I was a third grader in Miss Bukowski’s class at Eisenhower Elementary in South Holland, IL, a suburb on the south side of Chicago. I think I lived near Jim Croce’s friend Leroy Brown. Back then baseball did not cave in to the networks desire to make oodles of money on baseball. The games were played during the day and baseball made the world wait on it as opposed to waiting for the world. You were lucky if you had a male teacher, because those lucky ducks had a teacher that was smart enough to get one of the geeky (not a word back then) sixth graders to set a TV up in their room and they kept the game on during class. I had no such luck. I would ask for multiple bathroom breaks and dawdle outside the doors of the male teacher’s class and get updates. Of course I would sprint home at lunch to watch what I could of the game. And in 1963, as I would get home breathlessly there was my mother, glued to the TV gloating as Koufax would strike out Yankee after Yankee on the way to striking out 23 (the Cougan lucky number, what the hell?) Yankees in two games, THE MICK five times! MY Yankees lost four straight! My bombers scored only four runs in four games losing 5-2, 4-1, 1-0 and 2-1. I was devastated and my mother gloated all week. I was so depressed that I hardly noticed when the rest of the world was shocked in November. And on a side note, my mother had shaken JFK’s hand while he was campaigning. My mother died last October. I am still dealing with the loss. As I was rooting for the Braves last night to beat the Dodgers a funny feeling came over me. I asked myself why. Why? Why root for the Braves? Why not root for the Dodgers? Why not root for my mother’s old team? Go Dodgers.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Old man weekend

Well, I am adjusting reluctantly to being old.  I had a pretty nice little weekend. I got all my chores done AND breaking away just a little bit from old man stuff, I attended a gender reveal party.

I did not reveal my gender but I did learn that my son and his wife are going to have a boy in January.  I am pretty sure they will name him Walter, no matter what they are saying now.




I watered and weeded my front garden, I hacked the blackberry bushes away from the mailboxes, I repaired the dishwasher attachment on our Alki rental condo (more on this latter),I showed the rental condo to a prospective rentor, I painted my BBQ, I organized my shed, I watered and weeded my Zen garden and I feed my fish.




I guess this is what old guys do.

I am now a landlord.  I guess this is another thing old guys do.  I am a reluctant landlord, and not real good at it.  It is hard when you are a socialist/communist to be a landlord.  We currently have a tenant living in my mother's house; for free and we pay my brother rent and pay all the utilities.  We have a tenant in our basement, she is paying rent, but we waived it for August because she fed our cats. We have a writer in residence styling in the Alki Condo, we are big supporters of the arts AND we were pretty sure Sally, Peggy's mother would not move in until September, because that is what she said when she asked us to buy it so she could live in West Seattle after her husband passed away from a long terminal illness.


 Now she is not sure she wants to move! At least her financial advisor (Peggy's sister) who lives in Texas, is pretty sure that having her live in Magnolia, 40 minutes away from her local children is not an issue.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

58


When did it happen?  I was so sure it would not that I was not paying attention.  I got old. Old. I was so sure it wouldn't happen.

It is real.  I got old.  I can't do things that I used to do.  I can make the movements, but I can't DO them.  Things don't work.  Not like they used to.

Quickness.  Not there.  Movement - not without pain and major repercussions.

One day it was here.  Now it is gone.

And it is not coming back.  Ever.

They said it would happen.  I never believed it.

They were surprised it hadn't happened yet.  I was sure that was because it was not going to happen.









And when does this wisdom thing kick in?

When do I get that?




Friday, July 26, 2013

Republican Thoughts



Hello
I'm the guy who sits next to you
And reads the newspaper over your shoulder
Wait
Don't turn the page
I'm not finished
Life is so uncertain

I am getting beat up by life this summer.  All my good deeds are being thwarted and if I was a lesser man I would be willing to give up.  But as the lyrics below from one of my favorite Lyle Lovett songs says, What would you be if you didn’t even try; You have to try.

So yes, if is not too late, please make it a cheeseburger.

My mother passed away last October.  I will always miss her and a certain loneliness will remain with me the rest of my days.  My mother was a single mother and to honor her I decided to give a gift to a single mother who works where I work.  I gave this woman a year off from housing worries.  From Jan to Dec of this year I told her she and her two daughters could live in my mother’s house rent and utility free.  My gift was a chance for this woman to finally get ahead, save up some money and hopefully lessen the evil grip that the MAN puts on all of us.  I spoke to her of what a giant difference this year could make.  I spoke of the freedom that having say $2,000 or so in the bank versus being $2,000 or so behind could make.

In June she came to me looking for a payroll advance “to get caught up”.  In early July her wages were garnished?  In late July she told me she was pregnant with child #3.  Her answer to my question of what would happen in January (when the free ride was up) was that she was sure that the current father would have his act together by then and she would move in with him!

So much for good deed #1.

In July we offered room and board to the 18 year old son of a family member.  Our offer also included our services to help mentor him through getting his high school diploma. He sounded VERY appreciative, and from our discussion (based on how many credits he had and how many more he needed) that getting his diploma would be no problem.  We soon learned that his “take” on how many credits he had was much exaggerated. We also soon learned that he had no desire to live with us assholes; our offer came with some restrictions on lifestyle and some requirements of effort.

But two weeks passed and we soon learned from the family grapevine that we were in fact included in the most current story of what he was doing in life and that he WAS soon to be moving in and working towards his GED. This was news to us.

We met again and discussed a revised plan based on actual high school credits and came up with a new plan to pursue the GED.  Peggy spent a day with him moving his belongings to our basement apartment, registering him in the GED program and obtaining a used laptop pc for him to use in the GED pursuit.  She took him to his class that evening and picked him up from class.

The next morning he left for coffee with his girlfriend and went AWOL.  Peggy spent her morning chasing him down, found him exchanged some stern words and got him back in the fold, back to studying that afternoon.  After Peggy went grocery shopping. She returned and found him gone again.  Off to study with his Aunt, who would then take him to dinner with his father and drop him off at school.  A call to the Aunt informed Peggy that there were no study plans, no dinner plans and the nephew never returned.  I went to the school that night, found the classroom and found it not including our candidate.

So much for good deed #2

Now for my republican thoughts.  Yeah I hear dem there Republicans ranting about the takers in our society.  I hear their reasons for cutting government spending, cutting all handouts.  I know where these opinions come from.  I have just run into two of them.

I have no answers for it.  I have no answers to why people will not WORK towards improving their lives.  And it bothers the ever lovin’ shit out of me that they still expect to get the same rewards that those that DO work hard and DO the things expected of them.  I liken it to a child who won’t eat dinner but still expects to get desert. But UNLIKE Republicans, I am hear to tell you that while I can agree that there will be no desert if you do not clean your plate, I will be god damned if I won’t  set the table and put food on their plate tomorrow

Look
I understand too little too late
I realize there are things you say and do
You can never take back
But what would you be if you didn't even try
You have to try
So after a lot of thought
I'd like to reconsider
Please
If it's not too late
Make it a cheeseburger

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Set Him Free

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Bring It On, Chump



So far no takers.  Not a one.  For years I have been challenging a certain peer at work to a foot race.  He is a constant no-show, he won't do it.

Growing up I had average to below average speed.  I could steal a bag or two, but I needed to time things just right, and the opposing pitcher pretty much had to be lulled into the likely thought that I wasn't going anywhere - and then BOOM off I would lumber.

But now, as a frisky 57 year old, I like to challenge peers to footraces.  It is easy - NO ONE wants to do it!  So far I am undefeated.

And I warn them.  I tell them not to get discouraged.  I still have my explosive first step (and other skills that can only be described as explosive) and that right away they are going to feel that they have no chance in the race.  I do tell them that they will most likely gain on me as we near the end, but then I put the hammer down and inform them that I am an incredible closer.  The distance is going to be until I win.